Yesterday I slept at 6am. I’m having insomnia.I got loads of time to think about things: things that have happened; things that are happening; things that would happen in the future.

Hanging out with two boys during the first year of college was fun, probably a one of kind experienced (I should be partying at these stage of my life). Instead I found myself playing DoTA, Practicing DoTA, learned cursing & other things, all bad influence things. I still don’t drink though, the smell of alcohol disgusts me.

I want time to stop right now. Its raining outside our house (probably in the whole Tacloban City haha) and I like the sound of raindrops falling into our rooftop. I’m sitting comfortably here at our sala, with an electric fan focused on me to keep the mosquitoes away…my earphones are plugged into my ear and I hear Super Junior’s heavenly voices, I have three barnut wrappers beside my laptop, a bottle of cold mineral water on the table and my stomache is satisfied with the donut I just ate. Oh, the internet connection is speeding up right now too, haha.

How I wish all the nights of my life are like this. I’m sitting infront of my laptop, worrying about the future. My parents are asleep, safe and sound. Carefree night. I’m always worried about the future, I don’t know why. Probably because, up till now, I still don’t know ‘what where when how’ my life will be. Every night before I sleep, I have nightmares about the future (friends, family & life). They scare me to death. Even if my eyes are wide open, a scene flashes on my mind and I see myself alone…suffering.

Let me sleep with the moon.

Currently listening to: sunset glow by big bang
Currently reading: ang paboritong libro ni hudas
Currently watching: csi:miami